God is good.

I feel happy, even though this past year wasn't filled with exciting adventures, fellowship and trips to cool places.
I feel content, even thought I don't have a very showy ministry,showy gifts or showy talents. I feel at peace even though the battles were severe and I felt my strength run thin.
I feel good even thought this year was filled with personal sacrifices and forsakings.
I feel thankful even though I spent a lot of time away from people I care and love.
I feel grateful even though I felt my faith being tested and I don't think I scored to well.

Isn't it good to be alive...
Life is fair and God is good, there's a lot of truth in that little saying... the Lord recently brought that to my attention, I guess I'm pretty thick sometimes and I confess it wasn't a very easy lesson to learn.
I know He will more then repay every seeming sacrifice, wipe every tear and love every hurt away...I know I'll thank Him for the trials and the hard sayings.
I'm looking forward to Heaven.

A little bit of introspection and what not to be.

I was curios about that word so I looked it up and got this:
Introspection (looking within) is the process by which someone comes to form beliefs about her own mental states.
So I took a good hard look at my self these last couple of days, since the Lord had actually been talking to me about something, and when it came down to it, I just kept on falling on the same pit.
Sad.
Today I concluded that I do fine with big things, a big problem comes around, situations less then ideal, the world crumbles around me and I keep my peace, I trust in the Lord, I know He has a plan and He's in control, I know it's gonna be just fine.

But when it comes to little things, I can't seam to trust the Lord enough.
Silly little things that in a few days won't matter to me or to anybody else and seam to get the better of me every time.
I want to change that, and since I wrote about it here, it will serve me as a reminder. I have no excuse. Plus, who wants to be a grouchy person that looses her groove over silly little things?